Wednesday, October 27, 2010


I've been on vacation this week, and man have I been spending money like it's my job! I have shopped so much since Saturday I'm about shopped out. I needed some new work clothes, though, so I at least accomplished something. Still need a few more pairs of work pants and would like to find a cute pair of boots or two, but I'm just tired of shopping! Never thought I'd say that. With that said, I'll probably go again tomorrow... the allure of size 8's and small shirts is hard to resist!

I met with a personal trainer today, and I'm trying to decide if I want to pursue sessions long term. My gym offers three free sessions, so I took advantage. Today's session wasn't long, but dang did I feel it afterward. We worked mostly arms today, and 10 hours later they still feel like jello. I'm going to go back Friday and repeat the exercises we did, and I have another session on Monday. I can purchase 15 sessions now for $350, and I wonder if I just go ahead and do it if it will keep me in a routine. I haven't been exercising like I should, and I know that if I don't get into a routine I'll be in big trouble with my Dr., not to mention when the plateau hits and I have to actually work to maintain my weight.

Speaking of weight, as of this morning I'm at 158. That's 97 pounds gone since January, and 78 pounds since surgery. I'm not sure how much lower my body is going to go. I'm actually afraid of losing too much more. I don't want to look sickly. I was around 126 when I graduated high school, but a number that low scares me. Plus, I've lost most of it in a very short period of time- not quite 5 months. I don't go back to the Dr. until mid December, so I'm not sure how my body is going to react. It does seem I'm slowing down some, which makes me feel a bit better. I just hope I'm going to be able to add some foods back soon. My trainer of course doesn't want to change my diet, but said that I would probably need to get more carbs in while weight training. I guess I'll just email my nutritionist and ask her. I really want to do the weight training to tone up some areas that are, as I call them, jiggly. Luckily for me, I think I can tone up and avoid having to have plastic surgery. I was pretty proportionate when I was heavier, so I don't have the skin issues most have when they lose the weight.

I'm hoping to take some pictures soon. Lesa (my ultimate mentor in all of this) asked for some in my new clothes. If I get them taken, I'll post some. I really need a photographer, I hate trying to take self portraits...

Well, that's all the news for now. I'll update again after the training session Monday. I really think I should do the 15 visits to get me in a routine. It could be good for me. What do y'all think?

Monday, October 11, 2010

Transformation in Pictures

So, in my last post I said I'd try to post pictures of my journey so far. Here are some to get started.

My sister's graduation, December 2009.

Dad, Erika, Trish, Me December 2009

Me & my dad, March 2010

Surgical consultation, April 1, 2010

June 25, 2009- 18 days post op

June 25, 2010

July 17, 2010

August 10, 2010

August 23, 2010

September 18, 2010

September 24, 2010

October 9, 2010

October 9, 2010

October 9, 2010

October 9, 2010

As of today, I am down to 163 pounds, a loss of 73 pounds since June 7, and 92 pounds since the beginning of this year. I wore a pair of size 8 jeans today... the smallest size I've worn since high school. Yeah, I'm pretty happy!!

Thursday, September 30, 2010

3 Month Check Up ( a little late, but hey...)

Went back to see Dr. O a couple of weeks ago, and everything is progressing well. As of that day, I had lost 62 pounds since my consultation on April 1. He said I am at a point where he expects patients to be after 6 months at only 3 months out. I was hoping that meant adding back some foods to my incredibly restricted diet, but no luck there. I am expected to lose around 90% of my excess body weight, and am currently at 54%. I am afraid that I would look weird if I lost that much weight, but we'll just have to wait and see how my body reacts. As of today, I'm at 169 pounds. Not too bad.

I was able to get the nurse to send me a copy of the picture they took of me on April 1. Wow. I look at it to remind myself how far I've come, but I don't hardly even recognize that person anymore. If I can get it scanned, I'll add it in. I need to post some before & after pics on here anyway, maybe that will be my next entry.

On an exciting note, I purchased a new pair of jeans today... in a size 10! I can't honestly remember the last time I wore a size 10- maybe freshman year of college? Needless to say, I was VERY pleased!

I have noticed that it's taking my mind a while to catch up with my body. It's hard to remember that I'm not the "big girl" anymore. For example, I met up with a friend the other night who is teeny, and in my mind- I was huge next to her. Now I know I'm not, but I'm just so used to being bigger than my friends that I can't seem to get my mind to accept the change.

I've been slacking on the workout front, which isn't good since I will soon leave the "honeymoon period" where the weight just falls off & I will actually have to work harder to maintain it. I hate the gym... I hate running...but I need to tone up areas of my body. I need to find more motivation to work out... if only swimsuit season were fast approaching. I bet Zach that I would be in a two-piece by next summer, so I better get on it, especially the abs part, if I want to win that bet!

Eating such a limited menu is tiring... I'm soooo sick of chicken. I keep trying to remind myself that I'm eating to live, not for pleasure anymore. It's hard now that hockey season is starting & there is nothing at the arena that I can eat, and I miss the post game Steak & Shake trips. But, I go back to see Dr. O in December, so hopefully then I'll be able to add some foods back into my diet.

Another issue I'm noticing is being cold... all the time! At the hockey game the other night, I thought I was going to shiver to death! Guess I'll be investing in thermal wear for the season.

Well, that's about all the news I have right now. I'll post again when there is something to talk about (or when I can get the pictures up).

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Two-Month Follow Up

Had a very short visit w/ Dr. O today. Apparently everything is progressing along well. I'm down 51 pounds since my consultation in April, and down 44 pounds since I checked into the hospital. All together, since the beginning of the year, I am down 61 pounds.

Stopped by the Predators pro shop today in hopes of finding some new shirts. I am now in a men's medium, which feels good. The women's selection is less than desirable (see my other blog), so I passed on buying anything from that section & got some men's shirts.

I need to find someone to take some pictures for me. I'm not the best at self-portraits, and the photo booth app on my MacBook is only good for so much. I've had a request for pictures, so I better hurry up & find someone to take some.

I tried on a pair of my old pants the other night. I couldn't stop looking at the difference, and didn't know whether to laugh or cry! Laugh because of how far I've come, or cry because of how big I had gotten and thinking about all the things in life I let pass me by because of my weight. Not dating, not going out with friends, all because I was ashamed of my appearance. I faked it pretty well all those years, but inside I was sad. I'm so glad I made the decision to change my life and have the surgery. I feel like my confidence is coming back, and I feel myself smiling more. I'm still insecure sometimes, but that's just part of it. Sometimes it's hard to remember I'm not that girl anymore, and I still have my "I feel fat" moments, but it's getting easier. I'm finding new ways to spend my time, working with some other girls on hockey merchandise for women, so that's exciting. I paid the last of the surgery bills off today too, so now I just need to start working on paying off some debt, then get another job. Still trying to decide about taking some classes too. The world is looking better by the day!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

New Hair

Rewarded myself a little yesterday by getting my hair done. Here's a pic or two...

Going back to the Dr. Thursday. Will update after.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010


Just a quick update today. Went shopping yesterday & actually had some luck! And, I was able to shop at "normal" stores like Old Navy & NY & Co, not just at Lane Bryant. That was exciting, especially since everything I bought was on sale, and that the clothes are less expensive in stores like that. I hope that I can hold onto these pants for a little while, shopping will get expensive if not. It was actually fun to shop yesterday....a feeling I haven't felt in a long time.

Sunday, August 1, 2010


Finally, I hit the first of my big weight loss goals...One-derland! For those of you not in the weight loss surgery community, this means I am at a weight that begins with the number 1! This is a really big deal for me, since I haven't had a "1" weight in over six years! My poor body has been holding on to the lowest of the 200's for several days now, and I was sooooo happy this morning to get on the scale and see this. (FYI- I would have never thought I would publicly share a pic of the number on the scale....).

I have learned that each major milestone should be rewarded, but I am having a hard time deciding what I should buy. Of course, food is not an option. Clothes would be ok, except that I am losing weight so quickly I won't be able to wear them long. I'd love something tangible to be able to look at as a reminder. Maybe jewelry, but I don't wear much of it. I thought maybe a new tattoo, but I'm not sure I really want to commit to that. So, for now, I'm just going to be happy about this milestone & enjoy this feeling! It's only been 8 weeks since my surgery, so losing 37 pounds rocks!!

Well, that's the most current update I have. Will update as things continue to move forward. :-)