Monday, July 19, 2010

One Month Checkup

Went to see Dr. O on the 15th, and I'm down 40 pounds since April 1. Clothes are becoming a problem, as all of my pants are falling off! I still don't like shopping much, so getting motivated to go find stuff is hard. I did buy one new outfit last week, but I hate to spend a lot of money on things that I won't wear long.

Dr. O seemed concerned that I am losing weight faster than he had anticipated at this point. I told him that I still didn't eat much because I stop when I feel full. He suggested that I add 1-2 protein shakes back in to help get my protein levels up. Between 3 meals, 64 ounces at least of fluid, and now protein shakes, I feel like I can't get it all in! It's a lot for someone who's stomach is the size of an egg.

Speaking of eggs- had my first really bad food experience last week. I was pissed off, and wasn't paying attention to how fast I was eating a hard boiled egg. It got stuck, and came right back up. Man that was painful! I haven't eaten an egg since. Lesson learned- eat slowly, and don't eat when you're mad!

The scale is stuck. I was losing about a pound every 2-3 days, but now I've stayed the same since the 15th. I'm dying for it to move, because I'm only 4 pounds away from my first major goal. I'm trying to decide what my reward to myself will be, as everyone says it's important to celebrate your successes. Clothes aren't an option, food is DEFINITELY not an option, so I'm thinking a 90 minute massage might do the trick, although I'd like to have something tangible to remind me of the accomplishment. Guess I'll have to think some more. I have thought about a new tattoo, but not sure I want to commit to that just yet.

This weekend was Sig Ep's annual summer party, and I was so happy to get to go. It's always great to reconnect with old friends. Now most of us still live around here- Murfreesboro, Bellevue, Nashville, but it was great to see the guys that don't live here anymore. I hadn't seen Randy in probably 14 years, Jace in 3, or Rob in at least 10. We started off at Toot's- a local favorite here in town, and the scene of many dinners during my college years. There were probably at least 20 of us. I was able to find something to eat. Chick on a Stick rocks- I just miss the cherry mustard sauce :( I stressed over what to wear this year, especially after I looked at my pics from last year and wondered why I chose that particular outfit. I was able to return a new pair of jeans for a new pair that was 2 sizes smaller, and found a shirt I loved in the back of my closet. I bought the shirt for my 30th birthday celebration, and surprisingly it fit! Thank goodness, since my backup outfit- a favorite sundress, is now too big.

Here is one of my favorite pics of the & Jace.

It was an absolute blast, and I stayed out waaaaay too late! I got home about 3:30 Sunday morning, and had to be at work just a few hours later, but it was worth it to catch up with old friends. I wish I had taken more pictures, but my camera is so bulky I didn't want to carry it around all night. Here's a link to the pics I did take:

Well, gotta figure out dinner, so when there is more to tell I'll tell it!

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Shopping in My Closet

Haven't had too much to update. I've been back to work for a week (boo!) & am finally on regular consistency foods again. I'm learning what's good & what isn't (veggie dogs=disgusting), but since I can only eat 3-4 ounces per meal, it's not that hard. I can finally have shrimp & crab legs again-YAY!-& I've had the opportunity to indulge in both this week.

Work was pretty tough the first few days. Coming back right before a holiday weekend was hard, but I made it. I've struggled with fluid intake & learned not to take too much Vitamin D at once (hello, dry heaves). I was pretty obsessed with the scale the last couple of weeks, couldn't figure out why it wasn't moving. Lesa made me realize that I need to back away from the scale & maybe not even weigh except at dr. appointments. I've done well after talking to her about it, but I cheated & weighed yesterday, just out of curiosity & I'm down to 213- officially the lowest weight I've been in five years!! Minor victory accomplished. I knew I'd lost some, because I'm now having to go through my old clothes to find things to wear. It's been nice to shop in my closet, finding some of my favorite things fit again. It also sucks, because I'm quickly finding that they are getting too big too. I know, what a horrible problem to have, right? But I loathe shopping. I guess because I hated it so much the bigger I got. Now, I'm kinda excited to shop, but know that I can't spend too much money because soon those clothes will be too big as well. Went shopping yesterday, but didn't find anything. That always happens when I have money to spend. I held onto Christmas & birthday cash just for such reasons, but I know as soon as I spend it, I'll find things I like & won't be able to buy them.

I've started interval training, & so far it's been ok. I really want to run a 5K by the beginning of next year. I'm ready to start weight training again, but I haven't been cleared to lift yet. I enjoy weights so much more than cardio, but both are important. I go back to Dr. O on the 15th, so hopefully he will clear me to start doing more. I've only been working out at home, but I'm ready to get back to the gym. I also want to look into Zumba & yoga classes. Anything to keep me interested in exercise, as I get bored very easily.

I'm looking for a new job. I just don't believe that my purpose in life is to sell groceries. I'm also still looking into school. Jill told me I'd make a great teacher, but I can't afford that pay cut. Desiree is trying to find me a job where she works. It would be Monday-Friday, 8-5. I haven't had a schedule like that since 2000 when I worked at the newspaper. It would be great to have weekends off & a schedule where I don't have to worry about asking off for events & hockey games. I hope something opens up, I'm growing very weary of the retail business, & I'm not sure I like the direction our company is headed. By giving up my store my stress level is much lower, but I dread going to work daily. It just doesn't mean anything to me. It's hard to work in an environment where I don't feel I serve a purpose.

Speaking of work, I gotta go get ready. Will update again when I have anything interesting to say.