Had a very short visit w/ Dr. O today. Apparently everything is progressing along well. I'm down 51 pounds since my consultation in April, and down 44 pounds since I checked into the hospital. All together, since the beginning of the year, I am down 61 pounds.
Stopped by the Predators pro shop today in hopes of finding some new shirts. I am now in a men's medium, which feels good. The women's selection is less than desirable (see my other blog), so I passed on buying anything from that section & got some men's shirts.
I need to find someone to take some pictures for me. I'm not the best at self-portraits, and the photo booth app on my MacBook is only good for so much. I've had a request for pictures, so I better hurry up & find someone to take some.
I tried on a pair of my old pants the other night. I couldn't stop looking at the difference, and didn't know whether to laugh or cry! Laugh because of how far I've come, or cry because of how big I had gotten and thinking about all the things in life I let pass me by because of my weight. Not dating, not going out with friends, all because I was ashamed of my appearance. I faked it pretty well all those years, but inside I was sad. I'm so glad I made the decision to change my life and have the surgery. I feel like my confidence is coming back, and I feel myself smiling more. I'm still insecure sometimes, but that's just part of it. Sometimes it's hard to remember I'm not that girl anymore, and I still have my "I feel fat" moments, but it's getting easier. I'm finding new ways to spend my time, working with some other girls on hockey merchandise for women, so that's exciting. I paid the last of the surgery bills off today too, so now I just need to start working on paying off some debt, then get another job. Still trying to decide about taking some classes too. The world is looking better by the day!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Just a quick update today. Went shopping yesterday & actually had some luck! And, I was able to shop at "normal" stores like Old Navy & NY & Co, not just at Lane Bryant. That was exciting, especially since everything I bought was on sale, and that the clothes are less expensive in stores like that. I hope that I can hold onto these pants for a little while, shopping will get expensive if not. It was actually fun to shop yesterday....a feeling I haven't felt in a long time.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Finally, I hit the first of my big weight loss goals...One-derland! For those of you not in the weight loss surgery community, this means I am at a weight that begins with the number 1! This is a really big deal for me, since I haven't had a "1" weight in over six years! My poor body has been holding on to the lowest of the 200's for several days now, and I was sooooo happy this morning to get on the scale and see this. (FYI- I would have never thought I would publicly share a pic of the number on the scale....).
I have learned that each major milestone should be rewarded, but I am having a hard time deciding what I should buy. Of course, food is not an option. Clothes would be ok, except that I am losing weight so quickly I won't be able to wear them long. I'd love something tangible to be able to look at as a reminder. Maybe jewelry, but I don't wear much of it. I thought maybe a new tattoo, but I'm not sure I really want to commit to that. So, for now, I'm just going to be happy about this milestone & enjoy this feeling! It's only been 8 weeks since my surgery, so losing 37 pounds rocks!!
Well, that's the most current update I have. Will update as things continue to move forward. :-)